“Baby please forgive me!” He said reaching for me. “Hell naw!” I snatched away from him. I could not believe what I had just heard. I thought he had so much hate for Reed, how could he have sex with him?
“Did you fuck him?”
“What do you mean?” He asked still try to touch me.
“Did you fuck him or did he fuck you?” “Will I don't know how it happened I was drunk, and--”
I interrupted, “He fuck you didn't he?” Manny didn't say anything. “DIDN'T HE!!!” He couldn't even look at me. I felt so betrayed, what I had given to me from him over a period of time was just given up without thought.
“You know what, get out, you can lose my number, we're over.” I said calmly.
“Baby please don't say that!”
“I'm not your baby, your shawty, your Will, or your Willie, and I would like for you to go.” He looked down and started to leave. He was almost out of my door when he said, “I really am sorry Willie, I still love you and I know you still love me. If we're meant to be back together, it'll happen. Bye Will.” He walked out and I started bawling. I've never been hurt so badly. Manny seemed to be so good, I never thought that he would cheat on me. I guess that's what I get for thinkin'. The last words he said were still floating around in my head. He was right, I still do love him, you just can't turn feelings that strong off.
I laid on my bed and put my face in my hands. At that point, I just wanted to die, I wanted to give up. Everything seemed to be worth nothing. I fell asleep deep into my thoughts.
THE DREAM SEEMED TOO REAL... “TURN TO THE RIGHT” THE OFFICER SAID. I DID AS I WAS TOLD. THEY TOOK MY PICTURE AND I HAD THE MEANEST MUG ON. “COME WITH ME.” I STARTED WALKING TO MY CELL. WHEN I GOT THERE, I WASN'T ALONE. MY CELL MATE WAS A MUSCULAR DUDE STANDING AT ABOUT 6'6”. HE HAD DARK CHOCOLATE SKIN AND THE DEADLIEST LOOK ON HIS FACE. EVEN THOUGH HE DID. IT DIDN'T PHASE ME. I SAT DOWN.
“WHAT YOU IN HERE FOR LIL NIGGA?” HE SAID NOT LOOKING AT ME.
“FOR HANDLING MY BUSINESS.” I SAID WITH A SLIGHT ATTITUDE. “YOU GETTING SMART WITH ME? MAN YOU DON'T WANNA DO THAT.”
I GOT UP AND HIT DUDE IN THE FACE. HE JUMPED UP, THREW ME AGAINST THE WALL, AND YANKED ME UP. “WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU DOIN??” I LOOK AT HIM AND LET OUT THE MOST SYNISTER LAUGH I'VE EVER VOICED.. IT SCARED ME A LIL. I MUST HAVE BEEN GIVING HIM ONE HELL OF A LOOK BECAUSE HE LET ME GO.
“BET YOU WON'T FUCK WITH ME AGAIN, HUH BIG NIGGA?” I SAID WITH AN EVIL IN MY VOICE. HE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING.
“WILL, YOU GOT A VISITOR.”
--------------------------------------------THE SCENE CHANGED------------------------------------------------
I WAS SITTING IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW WITH THE PHONE, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKIN BOUT SO DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DON'T LOL.
ACROSS FROM ME HE SAT AND JUST LOOKED AT ME. “THIS IS ALL MY FAULT WILLIE.” “I KNOW.” I SAID COLDLY. “I'MMA GET YOU OUT OF HERE, I PROMISE.” HE SAID. “YOUR PROMISES STOP MEANING ANYTHING TO ME A LONG TIME AGO MANNY.”
“I KNOW WILLIE, I KNOW.” HE SAID TO ME.
“THEN STOP MAKING THEM, HOW'S YOU KNOW WHO.”
“NOT BETTER. WILL, REED'S IN A COMA!”
“OH REALLY??” I SAID, THEN I STARTED LAUGHING THAT SAME LAUGH AGAIN. MANNY'S FACE DROPPED.
“WILL WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO YOU?”
“YOU DID THIS TO ME DAMMIT!!” I SCREAMED AT HIM. BY THIS TIME THE WHOLE ROOM WAS BRIGHT AND NO ONE ELSE WAS THERE.
“YOU SHOULD HAVE NEVER SLEPT WITH HIM YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!” MY VOICE WAS SO AMPLIPHIED.
--------------------------------------------THE SCENE CHANGED------------------------------------------------
“HERE LIES THE BODY OF REED SAMUEL DAVIDS, MAY THE ANGELS LIFT HIS SPIRIT TO JESUS.” SAID THE REVEREND
“UMM COULD YOU HURRY THIS SHIT UP! I GOT SHIT TO DO MAN.” I INTURRUPTED. EVERYONE LOOKED AT ME. “WHAT? I'M SUPPOSE TO FEEL SORRY FOR THIS MOTHERFUCKER?? THATS FUNNY.” SOMEONE STARTED TO TALK, “SHUT THE FUCK UP!! I'MMA TELL YALL ABOUT YALL PRECIOUS LITTLE REED!”
I GOT UP AND WALKED TO THE FRONT OF THE CHURCH. “THIS LITTLE BOY, CAUSE HE DAMN SURE AIN'T NO MAN, TOOK SO MUCH FROM ME. HE BEAT ME, ALMOST TO THE POINT OF UNCONSIOUSNESS. HE VERBALLY ABUSED ME. HE CHEATED ON ME, THEN SLEPT WITH MY BOYFRIEND AFTER I BROKE UP WITH HIM!”
THERE WAS DEAD SILENCE. NO ONE SPOKE.
“I SEE HIS DEATH AS A GOOD THING, ONE LESS DOG IN THE WORLD. I TAKE THAT BACK, HE'S NOT A DOG. HE'S A SNAKE, A DOG CAN BE TRAINED! I'M GLAD I BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIM AND I HOPE HE BURNS IN HELL!”
WITH THAT I TOOK A LIGHTER AND SET HIS CASKET ON FIRE AND WALKED OUT LAUGHING THAT EVIL LAUGH. THE LAUGH GOT LOUDER AND ECHOED.
IT WAS SO LOUD THAT IT WOKE ME UP OUT OF MY SLEEP.
When I woke up I was breathing hard and sweating. I thought to myself, “That's not me, that will never be me.” I got up out of the bed and looked in the mirror. I seemed different, the look in my eyes were crazed. I felt bad and at the same time I felt vengeful. I was gonna get revenge, please believe that! Maybe my dream was tellin' me to go after Reed. I mean I wasn't going to beat him into a coma............ I think.
“Did you fuck him?”
“What do you mean?” He asked still try to touch me.
“Did you fuck him or did he fuck you?” “Will I don't know how it happened I was drunk, and--”
I interrupted, “He fuck you didn't he?” Manny didn't say anything. “DIDN'T HE!!!” He couldn't even look at me. I felt so betrayed, what I had given to me from him over a period of time was just given up without thought.
“You know what, get out, you can lose my number, we're over.” I said calmly.
“Baby please don't say that!”
“I'm not your baby, your shawty, your Will, or your Willie, and I would like for you to go.” He looked down and started to leave. He was almost out of my door when he said, “I really am sorry Willie, I still love you and I know you still love me. If we're meant to be back together, it'll happen. Bye Will.” He walked out and I started bawling. I've never been hurt so badly. Manny seemed to be so good, I never thought that he would cheat on me. I guess that's what I get for thinkin'. The last words he said were still floating around in my head. He was right, I still do love him, you just can't turn feelings that strong off.
I laid on my bed and put my face in my hands. At that point, I just wanted to die, I wanted to give up. Everything seemed to be worth nothing. I fell asleep deep into my thoughts.
THE DREAM SEEMED TOO REAL... “TURN TO THE RIGHT” THE OFFICER SAID. I DID AS I WAS TOLD. THEY TOOK MY PICTURE AND I HAD THE MEANEST MUG ON. “COME WITH ME.” I STARTED WALKING TO MY CELL. WHEN I GOT THERE, I WASN'T ALONE. MY CELL MATE WAS A MUSCULAR DUDE STANDING AT ABOUT 6'6”. HE HAD DARK CHOCOLATE SKIN AND THE DEADLIEST LOOK ON HIS FACE. EVEN THOUGH HE DID. IT DIDN'T PHASE ME. I SAT DOWN.
“WHAT YOU IN HERE FOR LIL NIGGA?” HE SAID NOT LOOKING AT ME.
“FOR HANDLING MY BUSINESS.” I SAID WITH A SLIGHT ATTITUDE. “YOU GETTING SMART WITH ME? MAN YOU DON'T WANNA DO THAT.”
I GOT UP AND HIT DUDE IN THE FACE. HE JUMPED UP, THREW ME AGAINST THE WALL, AND YANKED ME UP. “WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU DOIN??” I LOOK AT HIM AND LET OUT THE MOST SYNISTER LAUGH I'VE EVER VOICED.. IT SCARED ME A LIL. I MUST HAVE BEEN GIVING HIM ONE HELL OF A LOOK BECAUSE HE LET ME GO.
“BET YOU WON'T FUCK WITH ME AGAIN, HUH BIG NIGGA?” I SAID WITH AN EVIL IN MY VOICE. HE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING.
“WILL, YOU GOT A VISITOR.”
--------------------------------------------THE SCENE CHANGED------------------------------------------------
I WAS SITTING IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW WITH THE PHONE, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKIN BOUT SO DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DON'T LOL.
ACROSS FROM ME HE SAT AND JUST LOOKED AT ME. “THIS IS ALL MY FAULT WILLIE.” “I KNOW.” I SAID COLDLY. “I'MMA GET YOU OUT OF HERE, I PROMISE.” HE SAID. “YOUR PROMISES STOP MEANING ANYTHING TO ME A LONG TIME AGO MANNY.”
“I KNOW WILLIE, I KNOW.” HE SAID TO ME.
“THEN STOP MAKING THEM, HOW'S YOU KNOW WHO.”
“NOT BETTER. WILL, REED'S IN A COMA!”
“OH REALLY??” I SAID, THEN I STARTED LAUGHING THAT SAME LAUGH AGAIN. MANNY'S FACE DROPPED.
“WILL WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO YOU?”
“YOU DID THIS TO ME DAMMIT!!” I SCREAMED AT HIM. BY THIS TIME THE WHOLE ROOM WAS BRIGHT AND NO ONE ELSE WAS THERE.
“YOU SHOULD HAVE NEVER SLEPT WITH HIM YOU PIECE OF SHIT!!” MY VOICE WAS SO AMPLIPHIED.
--------------------------------------------THE SCENE CHANGED------------------------------------------------
“HERE LIES THE BODY OF REED SAMUEL DAVIDS, MAY THE ANGELS LIFT HIS SPIRIT TO JESUS.” SAID THE REVEREND
“UMM COULD YOU HURRY THIS SHIT UP! I GOT SHIT TO DO MAN.” I INTURRUPTED. EVERYONE LOOKED AT ME. “WHAT? I'M SUPPOSE TO FEEL SORRY FOR THIS MOTHERFUCKER?? THATS FUNNY.” SOMEONE STARTED TO TALK, “SHUT THE FUCK UP!! I'MMA TELL YALL ABOUT YALL PRECIOUS LITTLE REED!”
I GOT UP AND WALKED TO THE FRONT OF THE CHURCH. “THIS LITTLE BOY, CAUSE HE DAMN SURE AIN'T NO MAN, TOOK SO MUCH FROM ME. HE BEAT ME, ALMOST TO THE POINT OF UNCONSIOUSNESS. HE VERBALLY ABUSED ME. HE CHEATED ON ME, THEN SLEPT WITH MY BOYFRIEND AFTER I BROKE UP WITH HIM!”
THERE WAS DEAD SILENCE. NO ONE SPOKE.
“I SEE HIS DEATH AS A GOOD THING, ONE LESS DOG IN THE WORLD. I TAKE THAT BACK, HE'S NOT A DOG. HE'S A SNAKE, A DOG CAN BE TRAINED! I'M GLAD I BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HIM AND I HOPE HE BURNS IN HELL!”
WITH THAT I TOOK A LIGHTER AND SET HIS CASKET ON FIRE AND WALKED OUT LAUGHING THAT EVIL LAUGH. THE LAUGH GOT LOUDER AND ECHOED.
IT WAS SO LOUD THAT IT WOKE ME UP OUT OF MY SLEEP.
When I woke up I was breathing hard and sweating. I thought to myself, “That's not me, that will never be me.” I got up out of the bed and looked in the mirror. I seemed different, the look in my eyes were crazed. I felt bad and at the same time I felt vengeful. I was gonna get revenge, please believe that! Maybe my dream was tellin' me to go after Reed. I mean I wasn't going to beat him into a coma............ I think.
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